You may have noticed by now that I am a student of A Course in Miracles. Yesterday, my lesson was #154: I am among the ministers of God.
That concept is not new to me, but I read something different in it yesterday that I never had before. It starts like this:
Let us today be neither arrogant nor falsely humble. …We cannot judge ourselves, nor need we do so. These are but attempts to hold decision off, and to delay commitment to our function.”
It goes on to say:
There is one major difference in the role of Heaven’s messengers, which sets them off from those the world appoints. The messages that they deliver are intended first for them. And it is only as they can accept them for themselves that they become able to bring them further, and to give them everywhere that they were meant to be.”
….The messengers of God perform their part by their acceptance of His messages as for themselves, and show they understand the messages by giving them away.”
I got the idea of ‘giving a message to prove I had received it or learned it’, but I didn’t fully understand the true meaning until I had lived it the other way around. That is, it was only after I had given an intuitive message I received to someone else, that I was then able to read it over again later, and realize that it was really for me too!
This is how it finally sunk in for me: I’m a participant in a small group class, that was recently working on the idea of managing energy. In the groups’ discussion forum, a question was posed about “how to manage the energy to work when you’re exhausted” and how others are handling that issue, when physical or emotional exhaustion and burnout are a particularly sticky challenge for the members of this group.
One of my friends in the group, I’ll call her Lisa even though that’s not her real name, posted this comment in the discussion thread that followed:
Lisa: I am using my class times and study times to see how my energy levels would stand up to running a practice. It may be a slow transition for me as I am being wise about it, because I don’t want to sabotage myself by jumping into something that I don’t have the staying power for over the long term, as my body has been sick for a very long time now. Though I feel so called to do this work that I am confident that I will find a way forward, just at a gentle pace that doesn’t cause everything to short circuit!
When I read her comment, I had an immediate intuitive response to it, and wanted to share the idea I’d had with her, but, in my role as a life coach who is VERY sensitive to not coaching without permission (invitation), I didn’t want to offer any unsolicited advice either. I decided to share my thought with her, knowing that I was offering it in a spirit of loving support and that she could take it or leave it, so long as I wasn’t attached to what was made of it. I wrote:
Andrea: Lisa, are you open to an intuitive hit I had while reading this comment you’d posted here? I wonder if starting your practice is the exact thing your body actually needs to NOT be sick anymore? That perhaps providing a channel for your profound gifts to flow through you and benefit others is the VERY thing you’ve been needing? Of course, starting gently as you’ve said, but healing by doing it. <3 (Heart)
The forum discussion went on, and ended up taking a number of different directions from there. But some time later, she wrote me a private message saying how helpful my comment had been for her, and that it was integral to a huge Aha! and breakthrough she’d had after reading it.
So, score one for me following inner guidance and sharing something potentially helpful with a friend when the intuition presents itself.
And, bonus points too: Score one more for sharing a message as the only way to realize that the content of the intuition is actually intended for me — I only recognize my connection to Spirit, and honor the messages that come through that connection AFTER I have shared them with somebody, somehow. Only then can I hear or know it myself.
No one can receive and understand he has received until he gives. For in the giving is his own acceptance of what he received.” ~Pg. 289, ACIM Workbook for Students
When I read back my own message that I had posted to Lisa, and heard it for myself instead, I had the new realization that perhaps I need to be giving more of MYSELF to MY own practice, sharing more of my voice, wisdom, and words with people, and the world, in order to heal what is ailing me?
- My body isn’t as fit and healthy as I wish it were? ….Share more of my authenticity with the world.
- I’m not making as much money as I want? ….Publish my book(s) and provide value to more people.
- My heart is hurting from all the political strife in the country? …Tune-in to the spiritual truths I live by on my good days, and multiply them by helping to teach them to others.
- I don’t have a reference point for Joy? …Share my intuitions with anyone I can, and feel that connection to God flowing through me.
After all, that is the only real source of Joy that I’m aware of.